Chapter 2820 Asking My Heart If I Have a Guilty Conscience

After a moment of silence, she said, “Many thanks.”

The two words shattered the last glimpse of hope supporting Lin Xun's heart, throwing his mind into disarray. When had Xia Zhi ever acted so unfamiliar and polite to him?

𝒇𝙧𝙚𝓮𝔀𝓮𝒃𝙣𝓸𝒗𝒆𝒍.𝙘𝒐𝒎

Never before!

His mind wandered off, his heart bitter and lost. If he could go back in time, would he still make this decision? Lin Xun had asked himself that and ended up with the answer that he would!

Right this moment, Chen Linkong couldn't help but ask, “Do you have Miss Xia Zhi’s memories?”

Shrouded in streaming darkness, her slender frame appeared mysterious and majestic as she casually said, “So what if I have them? But a few memories that can be erased at any time.”

Chen Linkong’s eyes went wide open.

Even Thirteen became anxious and quickly said, “Lord, Mister Lin Xun...”

“There's no need,” Lin Xun interrupted Thirteen. Then, with a wooden expression like he had no feelings left, he said, “Your lord is your lord, and Xia Zhi...is Xia Zhi.”

Chen Linkong let out a long sigh. He also hadn't expected such an outcome.

“I'm going to get some air. You guys continue without me.” Saying that, Lin Xun walked out of the hall.

The night was heavy on Silent Night Range. In the distance, countless lights stretched like a long dragon. Lin Xun sat alone on a rock, lost in thought. This result was actually in his anticipation, but he had never dared to imagine it would really play out in such a way.

The current Xia Zhi obviously had recovered her past memories, and along with that her past wisdom and mentality. Therefore, she was no longer the Xia Zhi he once knew. Lin Xun suddenly felt indescribable powerlessness. So what if he had high achievements and monstrous fame on the path of cultivation? In the end, those things...could not grant his wish!

He didn't know what would become of him in a future without Xia Zhi. He didn't know anything. Unprecedented sorrow and confusion drifted in his heart like a fog that refused to dissipate. He didn't even have the strength to be angry or remorseful. It was hard to feel anything else when all that loomed was the greatest misery of goodbye!

“Regretting it?” a cool voice rang out.

Lin Xun stiffened. He turned his head to see her arrive at his side. In the night, she was just so mysterious, lofty, and majestic. And...unfamiliar!

After a long silence, Lin Xun shook his head. “I made my choice.”

"Haven't you ever thought of letting her drop her past life? I believe she wouldn't have a hint of opposition." She sat down, her fingers interlaced and her gorgeous eyes as bright as the stars.

“I did,” murmured Lin Xun. “But I prefer no confusion in her life, so that she can navigate her path with full knowledge rather than just sticking to my side and disregarding the rest. I want her to accompany me while also living for herself.”

At the end of it, he smiled bitterly, “Perhaps it is foolish of me to make this choice, but my heart told me that if I didn't, I would regret it for the rest of my life and never have peace.”

“Life-long regret, no peace for the mind...” She nodded. “I have all of her memories. From the moment you two met in Feiyun Village up to when you found me, every scene is vivid in my mind. I know that her heart can only fit you alone, but you clearly have never looked straight at her feelings for you.”

Lin Xun was stunned. “Can you elaborate?”

She stood up and gazed into the distance, her voice emotionless, "If you like her, why did you never tell her? Don't you think...she is very humble next to you?"

Lin Xun stared blankly. “Is that...so?”

“Does she ever care who you are? Has she ever cared that you already have a wife and a kid? Has she ever denied your requests once?” Her voice was clear and cold, and every question sent a shock through Lin Xun's mind.

In the end, her gaze landed on him. “Meanwhile you, what have you done for her? If you think that letting her tag along and not letting anyone bully her is enough, then as far as I'm concerned, there was no need for her to stay by your side, not since long ago."

These words hit Lin Xun's heart with the force of a hammer. He sank into a trance, and only after a long time did he bitterly speak up, “Maybe...I truly had it wrong. I regarded her as my own life, certain that unless I die, no one will ever be able to take her away from me.

“But now when I look back on it, I do owe her too much...” He coughed violently. Blood streamed out from the corner of his lips.

His state of mind had suffered a blow too heavy so it physically wounded him. This was also the first time in his cultivation that Lin Xun coughed up blood due to a drastic shift in mental state.

There had been no such thing before, and it would never happen again, because the only person in the world that could trigger this was Xia Zhi.

“If she is still alive, will you marry her?”

“Yes,” Lin Xun subconsciously replied and then looked stunned. He forlornly said, “But it's already too late. I originally thought I had never done anything that would give me a guilty conscience, but now...”

At this part, the sorrow rising from the bottom of his heart caused his eyes to redden. No shame, no guilty conscience? How ridiculous! Who in this world dared to say that they always went on about life with a clear conscience? The more Lin Xun thought about it, the more depressed his heart became.

An unknown period of time passed, and then a voice rang out, “Lin Xun, I'm hungry.”

“Okay, let me whip up something good.” Lin Xun unconsciously got up, pulled completely by a force of habit developed over the years. Whenever Xia Zhi uttered those words, he would naturally take out the best ingredients from his collection and make her something delicious.

It was like this once upon a time, and it remained so today, but this time, after getting to his feet, Lin Xun froze. He felt as if lightning had just struck him! He stared at the delicate figure standing before him, still wearing the same ancient-style gown, with a crown on her head and a scepter in her hand.

However...

“Lin Xun, why are you looking at me like that?” She frowned, incredulity written all over her clear and beautiful eyes. Just like in the past, she never concealed her emotions.

“You...” Lin Xun only felt something fermenting in his heart and about to explode. His head was dizzy.

Why is this? Could it be...

“Did someone bully you?” she asked, looking him up and down with nothing but worry in her expression.

“I...” Lin Xun's voice trembled as his whole body shivered with excitement. “Xia Zhi, is it really...really you?”

Her crescent brows scrunched up. "Lin Xun, are you okay in the head? Of course I am me."

Dazed, Lin Xun fiercely took a few deep breaths and grinned. However, tears welled up as he did. Unable to control himself anymore, he went over and held that slender figure tightly, as if afraid that she would disappear again. The tears he had held in his eyes finally rolled down against his wishes.

“Xia Zhi, it's really you...” He murmured, joy dancing in him like an erupting volcano. The feeling of finding something dear after losing it submerged him like a great tide.

There had never been a point in life where he was this emotional, excited, and happy. He hugged her tightly as if holding on to dear life. At this moment, the night was just right.